Pardon me while I descend, once again, into my standard ambiguity.
I don't have a terribly high self-image. When I got some spam today telling me I had been nominated for some such (just click here -- it won't cost you anything) based on having achieved some high distinction in my field, I knew
it was bogus.
And when someone, especially a pro and object of worship, treats me badly, I'm not sure I don't deserve it. After all, what do I have to offer _them_.
And overall, I believe I want the Truth. Please, push me off (gently if possible) rather than flatter me falsely!
A year or so ago I had an encounter with a GoH at a con that left me (still) grinding my teeth. S/He said something inappropriate and dismissive. Due to the moment, it COULD have been seen as "in the spirit of fun", and were that my only bad encounter with this person I used to be a fan of, I would have chalked it up to being caught up in what-all else was going on and probably not remembered it now.
However, as I said, I had been a fan, and although I didn't figure that I had much to offer them, I _had_ earlier tried to get a word in edgewise. However I hadn't been willing to tread on other people who were move vocal and insistent. When most other folks had drifted off I started to talk, and it was made clear to me that NOW was when this person needed to be elsewhere, and s/he walked off. The first time that happened, I figured it was bad timing on my part. The second time it happened it really kind of stung. And when I was half-following (mouth hanging open in shock) this guest allowed hirself to be accosted by someone who grabbed them, and rather than insisting that s/he truly had a pressing appointment elsewhere s/he talked with them for a few minutes, and then continued off, leaving me in the dust. Once again.
So I was already smarting from being dissed a couple times when I got the final slap.
Flash forward to much more recently. Again, having not a heck of a lot to offer, but wanting to introduce myself (again?) to a guest whom I have been in conversation with before, but perhaps never formally introduced to, a person who was surrounded for much of the con by people, so I didn't get the opportunity until lateish on Saturday... and others were louder and pushier than I, so I was cut in front of once in line -- but at one point he asked me if I were next, and in the short time I took to speak, I (re-?) introduced myself. When I mentioned my city of residence he said something like "ah, of course. You looked familiar..."
And now comes the questioning myself. I do prefer the truth, but even though I don't know for sure that he really did think I looked familiar, that was a kind thing to say, and I feel a LOT better about famous guests. And perhaps a little better about myself. And that puzzles me some.