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26th-Oct-2008 08:38 pm
Went to OVFF. Took Friday off of work, so I drove down early in the day.

Friday was fabulous... except I was tired (as usual) so I missed most of the filk.

Saturday ... was.

Nobody's fault but mine -- can't say what the reasons were -- but I started taking things -- not even "wrong" things, just things that didn't agree with my then-current mind-set (perhaps I'm over-sensitized due to the political season we're in?) started setting me off. I ended up spending lots of time up in the room, much of it crying. I was mean to a friend who'd telephoned -- probably because he didn't say what my insanity thought would be "the" right thing. Don't know. I tried to participate in the filking, but many of my insecurities and ... deep set wackinesses rose up and bit me hard.

Walked past a room with the lovely voice of someone I know harmonizing... the room was filled with people I like... but overall too many people that I couldn't make myself walk in. Walked past a room with a single performer (at that time) -- he caught my eye and smiled, and I felt lots better, but even thinking of going into the room had me crying again, so I just went back up to the room.

The people who came over, talked with me, rubbed my back, said nice things really helped. (After all I _didn't_ drive back home on Saturday... I spent about half an hour out in the car wondering if I should.) And I apologize to anyone to whom I was rude. Not my intent, but I was pretty well falling apart.

One of my favorite aspects of Saturday at OVFF is the auction -- run by a real auctioneer. He puts on a FINE show -- and he interacts well with us, although we're probably quite different from any other group he's had to auction for.

Sunday was good, and I nudged my shyness and insecurity aside to introduce myself to ... at least 4 people whom I'd not known. Unfortunately, I really had to leave by about 4pm in order to get home before it got too dark and I got too tired.

Overall a great convention.
27th-Oct-2008 01:45 am (UTC)
Wish I'd been there. Escape would be good.
27th-Oct-2008 02:50 pm (UTC)
And it would have been great to see you. *hugs*
27th-Oct-2008 02:53 am (UTC)
*hugsyoutight* I always enjoy seeing you and spending time; it was nice to have breakfast with you. I'm sorry Saturday was being Saturday. Did I remember to give you this years Not Back to School picture of Talis? Please tell me so I can send you one if I forgot (my little brain is very tired out; while being a successful charity auction and all, Interfilk takes a lot out of me).
27th-Oct-2008 02:51 pm (UTC)
Thanks, hon. You _did_ give me not one but *2* pictures of Talis -- with writing on the back of each one. Much appreciation for that too.
27th-Oct-2008 03:19 am (UTC)
Wow! Thanks for the con report. I do wish I'd been there.

And good for you for kicking your shyness aside. That's so very hard to do!
27th-Oct-2008 02:51 pm (UTC)

And it would have been great to see you again.
27th-Oct-2008 07:48 am (UTC)
I've had cons like that. I've had filks like that. Sometimes I just don't feel I can interact with anybody, and my crazy really gets to me when I'm in a situation where I feel I have to be 'on' all the time.

I'm glad you overcame and stayed. :-)
27th-Oct-2008 02:53 pm (UTC)
Thanks. I am too. (And I imagine it's much worse for you, being one of THE performers, than it is for me, being one of a few hundred audience members.)
27th-Oct-2008 03:38 pm (UTC)
I don't know. I think that it might be just as bad either way. And anyway, I'm sort of on the periphery these days, I think.

27th-Oct-2008 03:46 pm (UTC)
We all have 'one of those days.' I'm glad you stayed, and I'm glad to finally started feeling better.

27th-Oct-2008 06:43 pm (UTC)
Thanks. (I just wish they woudln't happen so frequently at OVFF!)

You were certainly a bright spot of the weekend.

(Wish I'd had more of a chance to sit down with S. to listen to her view on the whole election thing -- being pretty much on the outside, but I'm sure having a lot of bright insight on what's going on around her.)
27th-Oct-2008 09:51 pm (UTC)
I was very glad to see you, but (a) couldn't think what to say, and (b) was generally wandering around in a fog all weekend anyway.
28th-Oct-2008 02:19 pm (UTC)

I think I never see as much of people as I want to at cons -- but I'm happy for what I get.

It was great to see you.
28th-Oct-2008 04:24 am (UTC)
Was good to see you! Sorry we didn't have too much time to talk. Guess there's never enough time, is there?
28th-Oct-2008 02:20 pm (UTC)
Never is -- but was good to see you too. You coming over to chat in the pre-con times is one of my "happy penguin dance" memories.
30th-Oct-2008 03:19 pm (UTC)
I knew you weren't feeling well, but I didn't realize it was quite that bad. I'm glad you stayed and felt better, I don't get to see you nearly often enough.
30th-Oct-2008 04:52 pm (UTC)
Thanks. It was good to see you. I greatly enjoyed the time we did spend.
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